To: Ajax
You were everything to me.
To: ajax
even if i understand it's out of your control, i can't stand the thought of speaking to you again after what you did. you know what you did.
To: Ajax
My dearest friend Ajax... You were right all along... And I won't make the same mistakes twice.
To: Ajax
Once again I'm here wondering if you'll ever see these. The thought alone kinda eats me, ugh whatever. I hate how I haven't moved on yet. I bet u did.
To: Ajax
-I rlly don't think it was you. Even tho it could be. And I wish it were you. But I think you're not thinking abt me at all.
To: Ajax
I wonder what name you'd use for me if you were to write me smth here.. there are some texts under the.. S.. name, that could be you. But I rlly-
To: Ajax
Ugh I wrote a text in white by accident and I just realized there are other.. ajax? And people here are sending messages to them? Ughh. Annoying.
To: Ajax
You didn't even try to apologize to me.Why?Did you really care that little abt me?Was I truly worth nothing?Are you still thinking abt me?No. u r not
To: Ajax
Unluckily I still miss you. I regret it pushing you away. But you also messed up. You betrayed me. I couldn't stay after that.
To: ajax
you said you wanted to live together. now its dawning on me, i may forever just be the backup for whenever whatevers better falls through. ouch.
To: ajax
i love u so so so much it makes me sick to my STOMACH!!! i will always be here!!!
To: Ajax
I took a picture of the pillow you rested your head on the night you held me so I can look at the imprint and remember it DID truly happen.
To: AJAX
come back to me just once
To: Ajax
I miss our friendship. I'm sorry. Please come back to me.
To: Ajax
You appear in my dreams rather often. Did you even ever actually care about me? Why did you choose them. I. Don't. Understand.
To: Ajax
I just realized that if we were to resume being friends, I'd be exactly like Basil is with Sunny in faraway town/irl after those 4 years. Sigh.
To: Ajax
We could (be?) have been a sort of MeroNia. Ugh don't mind me, I'm just feeling nostalgic. I should stop. I wonder if you'll ever see this
To: Ajax
Just had the randomest 12am thought, we should do language uni together lol . . . if we didn't "break up", it would have been such a good idea ngl
To: Ajax
Fault. So. I can't go back. We're better like this. You're surely better without me. And I'm better without u. I hope you left Y&M too anyway.
To: Ajax
I still haven't found anyone like you. Or maybe I did. But it's obviously unhealthy to compare. I miss our bond though. But I know it's not mainly my-
To: Ajax
But it hurts to be like that. To do something and to realize you do things like that too. & I miss you. But I have new friends now. I hope you're okay
To: Ajax
You. I noticed patterns. I started doing things you did/do. I'm not saying I have ADHD, but I have to admit I have some behaviors similar to that&to u
To: Ajax
I didn't send anything anymore till now, but that doesn't mean I didn't think of you. I did. But I get distracted a lot lately. And that reminds me of
To: Ajax
I wonder if you got thread out of FOMO. Why would you do that otherwise? Thought you'd be against meta stuff..hm. I mean.. fair, I'm kinda curious too
To: Ajax
I wonder if you'll ever find this.. what would you even do in that case? I "broke up" with you. Do you think I'm stupid after this?
To: Ajax
I know it's silly of me to say that, when I'm the one that "broke up" with you. I'm sorry. I can't help it.
To: Ajax
- not exactly us, but the feeling of betrayal seems the same to me, even tho it's not and ik it. But like I said, I project like crazy. Miss you.
To: Ajax
I miss you. When I see bestfriends fighting in fiction, I project like crazy. I hate that I still think of u, but I do. B and S from gossip girl are-
To: Ajax
Used to stick together. You're my bestfriend, I'll love you forever.
To: Ajax
Actually I do hope you're suffering without me, cause I gave you everything and I would have done anything to make you happy. Take loss.
To: Ajax
Why did you self-sabotage? You always do that. You should really stop doing that.
To: Ajax
I should stop spamming here/you, but I clearly didn't move on yet. I can't move on. It hurts too much. I wish you hadn't betrayed me.
To: Ajax
All these messages directed to you, sent by me in this underrated site, just reminded me of how Patroclus monologues (in 'Hades'). Lolol. Me here, fr.
To: Ajax
I'm not the one that wrote the first message under your name btw, I would never say that
To: Ajax
I hope your new friends treat you well
To: Ajax
I mentioned pride because i KNOW you'll never come back to me and/or apologize. I just know it. And I know my worth. So I won't come back to u either
To: Ajax
I need to know if you miss me, this is so annoying i overthink so much, why does pride exist?our friendship was amazing,i'll never have smth like that
To: Ajax
I hate that I miss you. I can't forget about you. I hate this. This hurts. Why did you do that to me. Why did you backstab me. Why did you betray me.
To: Ajax
I've always been angry and resentful but recently I'm starting to think that maybe you'll be way better without me. Was I truly too clingy? I'm sorry.
To: Ajax
I'm sorry. Maybe I actually was too much. And I did expect too much. Maybe I forgot that you were supposed to be my closest friend, not more than that
To: Ajax
do you ever miss me?
To: Ajax
I'm not even sure you know this site.. but, do you ever think of me? Do you ever regret not choosing me instead? I shouldn't, but i do miss you
To: Ajax
stop it, you're annoying