To: Alexis
On TikTok? Why add me there? Listen I appreciate the time you gave me. But I didnt want nor deserved to wait forever. Ill respect what im building now
To: Alexis
While we ended up hurting eachother, I will forever be grateful for what I learned. You will always have a place in my heart. give abby a kiss for me.
To: alexis
i miss our friendship more than our relationship. was only one of those worth fighting for to you? whatever, good luck out there
To: Alexis
vent to me because it'll bring me down makes me feel so ashamed for venting , and also makes me want to erase your fears of that
To: Alexis
I'll always keep my vents to myself now so you don't feel too much and so you have room, but i have to admit you always saying why you never want to
To: Alexis
and I regret ever venting, because it's hard to grasp how much you cared for me, I never realized how much I impacted you, I feel so bad and that's wh
To: Alexis
But it's all I want. You were all I wanted to love, but now even I feel bad for loving you, I would never say this to you because you're struggling
To: Alexis
I know how to "become sane" or whatever, but it scares me a lot actually. Which makes sense because I'm not used to it, it's uncomfortable to imgaine
To: Alexis
understands and for some reason that hurts me the most. But I understand why people don't, it just brings back that pain that never left is all I gues
To: Alexis
your h8 for me may not be real but it feels real everytime and to feel your h8 even if not real really hurts. On topics like these no one ever underst
To: Alexis
h8s me and wants me to crawl back in my shell no matter what, even if it's not reality, it feels reals and truamtizing me the same every time.
To: Alexis
for longer, no matter how much you say you love me I will eventually feel like you h8 me again and that is a me problem, I will always feel everyone
To: Alexis
This is why I genuinely h8 thinking of myself, it just gets me into episodes, ive been working on it for so long but that melancholy clings to me
To: Alexis
Like I don't judge you, but like how. You've seen me through so many episodes like idk. And my personality, omg and my mistakes
To: Alexis
Why do you care for me? Like how? As amazing and intelligent as you are I'm genuinely starting to judge you for liking me no offense!! Just like
To: Alexis
in a row. You never saw me as someone so rotten, and I still don't know why, I see a connection like ours and still make it hard for you
To: Alexis
This is why I was scared to love you, I'm not okay, as much progress as I make idk how long it will be until I am sane enough for like 1 week straight
To: Alexis
I try so hard I feel, but then everything people say to me, makes me want to stop all together, I feel so brainwashed and melancholic
To: Alexis
but that's my fault. Everything about how I feel bad is my fault. I wish I could blame it on a wood bug or something lmao idk, I have victim mentality
To: Alexis
I miss everything with you made me feel, and everything you said I made you feel, I dont miss liking you so much I got more depression and symptoms
To: Alexis
I miss how you understood me to the best of your ability, and understood that you didn't fully understand me, and I the same, it felt so safe, you did
To: Alexis
Even lose weight. I get so pale and I try to get help but I always feel so judged for existing. You never judged me. I never judged you, I miss that
To: Alexis
something about it but I always end up right back. I need to cry but I can't ever I wish I could sleep I wish I coild eat. I don't eat but I don't
To: Alexis
I wish I didn't pity myself, I wish I tried harder and didn't make up for it by trying to hard. I wish I treated myself like a person, I try to do
To: Alexis
Every year, feels like the top worst year ever for me. I h8 myself, I wish I wasn't so sensitive. I wish instead of loving you I just liked you a lot
To: Alexis
I feel rotten and worthless and stuck and annoying and friendless and ignorant and self centered and guilty and gullible and nothing.
To: Alexis
I'm set to fail, and I could do something about it, but I don't believe I will, I've lost all hope. Is this what heartbreak does to a person?
To: Alexis
I hope one day I can forget you, heal, move on, love myself, be whimsical and accomplish my dreams. I don't think I ever will.
To: Alexis
when I saw the trailer for the new spiderman I thought the same thing
To: alexis
give me another chance and i will do it right this time, i can show u love and care and respect and every other thing u deserve, one more chance.
To: alexis
sometimes i wonder what would've happened if i never broke up with you
To: alexis
i know im the one who ended it but i still love you even after 2 years and i don't think i could ever stop loving you even if i wanted too
To: Alexis
Im really clinging to the chance that we could try again once Im 18. But until then I hope I can remain in your life, I miss our random conversations
To: Alexis
i'll forever mourn what we could have been. every time i listen to iris, i think of you.
To: alexis
hi lexi!! we have been friends for eight years now, isnt that crazy? you are really cool and i miss being in school with you. lets stay close forever
To: Alexis
Thank you for everything you have done.. thank you for letting me go so I can find someone who will love me more than you ever did.. so thank you
To: Alexis
You let 6 years go down the drain because you were "confused" by your feelings.. and I sat there and I watched you walk away and love someone one else
To: Alexis
Why did you write to me after all these months? I didnt keep you blocked because I care. You rejected me though-I just wanted to love you back then. R
To: alexis
You were my first everything its so hard to forget u especially since u used to live across from me. sometimes i sit on my porch waiting for u to come
To: alexis
you are the most beautiful and perfect girl in all of warsaw
To: Alexis
I look for you, around campus, I mean. Even though I know that you go elsewhere after classes, I check. Every day. I should stop. But I know I won't.
To: alexis
i miss talking to you, as a friend or not. i miss when you would give me hauls, and i just miss our late night calls. please, text me some time.
To: alexis
the wisla will never be mine. i am always the one who will watch, friends seeing something, a connection i stole. pretend this is my river.
To: Alexis
You're so beautiful and kind, I love talking to you and being with you. I wish you would feel the same and I wish I could be easier to love.
To: Alexis
I think i felt something real for you the first time just now. you've got me smiling like a fool.
To: Alexis
I hope your doing well mi sleepyhead ily & miss you wishing i could talk to you again soon
To: Alexis
About that moment: as i was gazing at her there, i know my heart was freed of every other longing.
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