To: Casper
I hope all issues you face get done through, always forever supporting you, P.S do u even listen to goat moon? - R.H
To: Casper
That's no excuse for the way I did treat you. You didn't deserve any of that. I just. Feel dumb? Idk. Im sorry.
To: Casper
Idk if I can ever talk to you again. Ik I loved you but I think I was in love with you. You never wanted that. Im so sorry. Idk if ill ever b over you
To: Casper
Is that pathetic? I feel pathetic. I feel needy. I wish I could just be an adult about this.
To: Casper
I wish you would just message me. Tell me what you need from me. Id give you all my organs if you told me it's what you need. I cant stand this.
To: Casper
I moved out of my moms house. Im trying to get my life together but it feels pointless w/o you
To: Casper
I dont know myself anymore. I want to be someone you can be proud of but Im such an incredible fkup. I want to discorporate. idek what u wld want 4 me
To: Casper
I still add songs to your playlist. Its private, so ull never find it but Im always thinking of u. I purged a bunch of them tho. Its half the size
To: Casper
Was it childish that I wanted you in my life forever? That I still do? I wish u would just say anything to me. Wish u wld tell me u hate me.
To: Casper
I hate being broken. I wish I were normal. We'd still be friends if I cld be a person. I wish I was just block me already.
To: Casper
Was I a burden?
To: Casper
Wish I cld fix things. I hate that I only made things worse when I tried. Im a horrible friend. Im a coward. I shldve done more when I had the chance.
To: Casper
I hate how I feel when I think about u and I hate that I cant stop thinking about you. I hate how we left things. I shldve been a better friend.
To: Casper
Ik it's my own fault but it feels so weird not knowing how ur doing. Knowing I'm changing w/o u. I still wish u well. I hope one day we can talk again
To: Casper
Everyone is tired of hearing me whine and cry Abt you. You most of all I bet. I wish I could erase all my emotions. I hate being a burden.
To: Casper
Idek what I'd say to you anymore. I'm scared to hear what you'd say to me. I'm just sick and tired of being a duckup I guess. I wish I were more.
To: Casper
I'm mad at myself for not putting in the effort but I'm mad at you for not checking in on me at all. I feel like a worm. I wish you'd just block me.
To: Casper
I'm trying so hard to leave you alone but ur all I think Abt dude. U make me want 2b a better person. I hate that things ended the way they did.
To: Casper
It's oz. I'm bald again.
To: Casper
Did you ever finish the glass scientists? I don't think I did
To: Casper
Or if it's too late we could meet whenever works for you? Idk. The snow it rlly pretty but it might not b safe to drive. Plus it's kinda a far walk
To: Casper
If that's you you can come over right now. You know where to find me
To: Casper
Idk what I want. I think that's my whole problem. And when I do want things I don't feel good enough to have them.
To: Casper
I wish I could ask you how you're doing but idk if you want to hear from me after all of this. I wouldn't. But I'm petty.
To: Casper
I lowk hate that idk if you'll see this. But it makes it easier to say things. Not much of an apology if you never get it tho
To: Casper
I know I owe you an apology. Im sorry I never texted. Im sorry I ran away. What Ive done has hurt you. I cant change that. I never wanted to hurt you.
To: Casper
Idrc about fixing what we had bc it's definitely changed but I do care about changing it for the better. And if that means we don't talk then okay.
To: Casper
I've been acting nuts since. Ever? But esp so since I learned as the unsent proj. Idk dude. You left me on read on tumblr and that freaked me out.
To: Casper
I want good things for you. I want you to be happy. You deserve the whole universe.
To: Casper
I'm a very messy person and I don't react the way I should to things and I don't want to force you to take care of me. I feel like thats all Ive done
To: Casper
I just miss you. And I'm so mad at you. And jealous. And sad that I ruined things. I'm all over the place and I can't handle it.
To: Casper
And I'm sorry for messaging you over Pinterest only to delete them. They were mostly inviting you to my house to fight. Youd definitely win too lol
To: Casper
It feels like you left me too. I know I should've put more effort into keeping you in my life. But I'm not able to change in good ways right now.
To: Casper
My whole life is my dad dying. He needs so much from me now. It's only gotten worse since high school. I'm so jealous that you left.
To: Casper
I just didn't know who I was to you. And that scared me. So I pushed you away. That wasn't fair. But you never started any conversations either. idk
To: Casper
I shouldn't have pushed you away but ik if we talk now I'm just gonna make it worse. Ive let my insecurities ruin us. I never wanted this. I hate this
To: Casper
I know I haven't been a good friend and if I could change the past I would but I think it'd be best if we don't talk for a while. You deserve to be ok
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