To: colleen
im sorry for all of these. u dont need the stress of my rambling. ive been able to get my mind somewhat off u. enjoy ur summer
To: colleen
even tho ik the chances are practically 0 im still constantly preparing myself for any sort of situation where i see u in public. maybe im just crazy.
To: colleen
i still cant get u out of my brain and its killing me. im constantly spiraling after there was nothing i could do at the end. Montreal-Penelope Scott
To: colleen
feels like el universo es against me. maybe nunca te pueda dar las cosas ni te diga nada. espero verte next fall anyway. disfruta del verano. ty.
To: colleen
feels like the universe is against me. maybe ill never be able to give u the stuff. still, hope ill see u next fall. enjoy ur summer. ty for this year
To: colleen
im still so paranoid uve seen all of these. if u have then the note will make evrythng insanely obvious. if u have idk if i can handle seeing u again
To: colleen
i decided im finally gonna give u a note w/ the other stuff. i can never tell you everything, but it feels moral not to tell you this
To: colleen
WHATARETHESECONTRADICTINGFEELINGS I WANT TO BE NOTICED AND LIKED BY U AND THEN IT BARELY HAPPENS AND I PANIC AND WANT TO BE INVISIBLE WHATSWRONGWITHME
To: colleen
WHYWHYWHYWHYWHY AGHHH WHY WOULD YOU SEND IT WHY WOULD YOU NOTICE ME WHY WOULD YOU WASTE EFFORT ON ME WHY WOULD YOU CARE ABT ME NONONONONO
To: colleen
enough to u to be able to talk abt stupid things like music or shows or even personal life. ik itll never ever happen and is stupid to want at all 2/2
To: colleen
im so delusional for even thinking i could ever be close to u in a normal way, let alone a more personal way. idek why im so hopeful to get close 1/2
To: colleen
is it weird to listen to music for you? i want to have common interest to talk to u abt even tho ik casual convos like that might already be too weird
To: colleen
i wish i could talk to you abt your fav music. i like a lot of the same stuff but idk where to start with the other artists
To: colleen
how do you stay so calm all the time? im so jealous of your ability to just always be nonchalant. teach me your secrets T-T
To: colleen
i still feel like everything i do makes it insanely obvious, and its killing me
To: colleen
now that nervousness will just be bc i like u & want u to like me & not bc im trying to suppress stupid romantic fantasies whenever ur around (pt 4/4)
To: colleen
but the way i like you shifted from romantic attraction to platonic admiration. idk why or how and ik ill still be nervous around you (pt 3)
To: colleen
it made me realize that with knowing more abt ur personality, especially when you were younger, it still made me like u even more than before (pt 2)
To: colleen
i talked with my friend a lot yesterday and it made me realize everything i learned didnt make me fall for you harder (pt 1)
To: colleen
the more i discover abt you the deeper i fall for you. i need to stop but its the only thing keeping me going rn.
To: colleen
i would do things for you that i wouldve never considered doing for anyone else. it scares me. whats happening to me?
To: colleen
i know more than i should abt u & its only solidified the fact that ur practically the polar opposite of my type, so why does it make me want u more?
To: colleen
i want my heart to stop racing around you. i want to stop finding your smile adorable. i want to physically rip my feelings for you out of my body.
To: colleen
im being eaten from the inside out by my feelings for you. i feel the same around you every day then hate myself for it. why wont they leave??
To: colleen
it often feels like you can read my mind, and while ik its just coincidences, it terrifies me anyway
To: colleen
i would be so insanely screwed if you ever found these. . .
To: colleen
i think i might have to just disappear if you ever found these. . .
To: colleen
are my feelings to you as obvious as it feels for me? idk what i would do if i ever found out you knew
To: colleen
you only wear it occasionally but omg that purple shirt drives me insane. . . how am i meant to focus on anything but you?
To: colleen
i like you, its wrong, i dont know why i do, i hate myself for it. ik it could never work for so many reasons. por que me pareces tan hermosa?
To: Colleen
I miss you and think of you from time to time, then I realize how toxic you were. But were you toxic to me? Were you really my friend? -A
To: colleen
i miss what we had, bug. it's hard to see who you are now, it's not who i was in love with. i know she's still in there, take care of yourself
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