To: Gamze
The worst of it is,even when I dont remember you,when I stopped caring long ago,you still destroyed my ability to believe sb when they really love me
To: Gamze
I wish for someone to treat you exactly like you treated me. I hope Karma gets you in every lifetime and I pray we never ever meet again
To: Gamze
I have always turned to hate in the face of loss. As much as I lie to myself, I cannot hate you. I should, I tried and I really wanted to. But I cant
To: Gamze
In my worst and most unfair moments, I compare everyone I meet to you. Is that not sick. Would that make you feel sick
To: Gamze
Perhaps, deep down it is only the remaining resentment simmering. You were my most devastating liar
To: Gamze
Perhaps, deep down it is only the resentment left simmering. Most of all I am unbearably mad at myself for believing you
To: Gamze
I wonder what you would say if you knew how much of us I erased. It took a lot of time but not as much as making the memories or caring for them
To: Gamze
Sometimes the weirdest things remind me of who you were- what you used to be for me. Its funny how hard it stings. I just cant forgive
To: Gamze
I think I am finally clean. Above all else, I missed myself. It is..odd to be this happy again and perhaps even greater is the lack of guilt I feel
To: Gamze
The worst is, I dont know if I can love myself without hating you. Its making me feel sick just thinking about it
To: Gamze
Some nights I cant stop thinking about the why. Why I let it go on this long, knowing your affection was always a fickle thing I shouldnt covet
To: Gamze
I lived so long with this love, I feel carved out without it. This hole that I recognize for what it is and was but cannot fill not stitch
To: Gamze
I really wished for it to be you. Not in a rational way. Not even in an idealized way. You were my when you know you know
To: Gamze
Its the worst when I think of everything I dreamed about and how I cant erase you from it. Its the worst because there is no me without that love
To: Gamze
If I gave you the long answer, I fear the hurt would spill out and taint anything left to hold in memory. Im sorry I cant be better than this
To: Gamze
I hate that I cant be your friend. I hate that I ever said anything at all. Most of all, I hate that I dont hate you at all.
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