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Not lost but i was
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idk if im overstepping, but ive been wishing we could have another srs convo & see if we could compromise or align. but im too scared youll reject it
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i feel like i just want to change my mind and say yes to all the things we disagreed on. i dont know why i keep thinking about it and u for so long
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i know u dont even come on here anymore but ive had such an urge to talk to and laugh with u, just about random things
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u sleep late a lot
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btw i had a dream ab u last night lol, i dont rmbr it tho
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guessing ur going to sleep, so goodnight
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me too, i wish we couldve stayed friends or smth atleast. wouldve been nice just to chat ab stupid stuff loll. i always feel like i wanna update u
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she lives in america u dorkkk & shes seen it already hahah. are u going to visit fam? what do u do with the cats when u go on holiday?
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she lives in america dumbo & shes seen it already. are u going to visit family? what about the cats? what do u do with them when ur on holiday
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whats the time diff between india btw? &haha my work friends live far from me. hope ur doing okay today
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its okay u can unmatch with me if i ever download it again, if u want lol. i just wanted some time away from everyone loll, takes too much energy ygm
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that friend lives abroad i cant go with her lol & what do u do with ur cats when u go on hols
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ive been trying to send a message for 5 mins and it keeps censoring me
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i didnt unmatch lol i deleted the acc for now hahah
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i dont have anyone to watch it with in cinema lol. when do u go to india btw?
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hahah im not hating, im being serious. i cant put the two personalities together in my head lol. & hmm maybe ill watch it once the hype dies down
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the dual personality kills me loll, id do anything to hear that rap again XD i literally cant get over it ahaha
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hahaha i hate sad movies bc theyre soo sappy and i dont like that kinda stuff rlly, or i dont like watching things thatll make me sad
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this is so random but i cant stop thinking ab that rap u showed me LOL, it acc kills me everytime bc ur such a softie and the lyrics were so not LOLL
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would u recommend the movie? i dont like sad films, will i hate it? lol. my friend keeps telling me to watch it too. it would probs remind me of u 2
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its sunny here, i hope its sunny for you. & thank u, im getting a lot of calls from jobs lol so i hope it goes well. wish i could tell u about them
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dont worry about me, im taking as much care as i can (smiley face) i rlly hope u have a good time at ur new job !! make some new friends lol
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i hope you keep taking care of urself
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(insert a million heart emojis) lol
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i still keep writing to you
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im safe. are u? u not sleeping
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me and my friends were tlkn today nd we always joke ab roadman slang and we found a website which translates slang to normal, i wish i couldve shown u
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can u cook? would u have helped me in the kitchen lol. id make whatever for you. i hope u had a good day today
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no idea if you still check this, i try not to but i still find myself doing so. i hate this feeling
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ur insta came up on my suggested lol
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goodnight my dear (insert roadman emoji here) lol
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im saying goodnight even tho its not night yet bc i hate goodbyes and i refuse to say those. goodnight my lil roadman hahaha
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u have been the kindest and most patient with me, and i cant ever thank u enough for that. thank you. & same to u, if anything is wrong pls txt me
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im going to miss you so much, i wish we had more time. but i will be so happy once u find ur person. ill always be rooting for u
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u make me feel like the closest version of my past self, the version of me before all the trauma and pain and before i became all hard and closed off.
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or maybe ill tell u it on my birthday. i dont want to make things worse for now by showing it
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maybe one day if Allah decides ur ever meant for me, ill show the poem to u
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ill write to u anonymously, i think itd help me for a while. i have trouble letting go
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i hate this part, u leaving. it feels like i keep living the same moment over and over
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i want to tell u not to go but i know its not healthy & i dont want you to get stuck with me in ur mind and vice versa. be happy, for me please?
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i miss u, i rlly do. im always here, looking for a message even when u stop sending them eventually. until i move on too
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+then pls dont feel obligated to reply. i dont want to get in ur way. never that. ur wife is waiting for u somewhere, i hope u find her soon
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maybe we need to take a few days or weeks, however long it takes, away. ill write a message for u here once in a while but if u cant or dont want to+
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i dont want to make it harder for us to move on. i want to talk to u all the time but i know thats not smart. maybe we should take some time out?
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& let me know if u ever end up watching it. its called when life gives u tangerines. its a k drama but it looks so sweet. i might watch it too
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u know exactly the right things to say to calm my heart, i rlly love that ab u. i wanted to watch smth with u, but u can watch it one day on ur own &
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ur right, i want to move jobs so badly but i should do it for a place i know ill be happy in. 5 is so much. but i will keep u updated here, if u want
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i want to lay under the stars with you
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my lil roadman lol, i hope youll be truly happy very very soon
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my call went well, if i get to the second round but its 5 days a week in london, which is the only thing. i just wish to run to u whenever i wanna tlk
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i miss u all over again. dont apologise for not being able to reply, u have ur life to live & i wouldnt want to disturb that. yes kiss the cats for me
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i wish i could tell u how my call went, tell u all about my life
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random question came to mind, if i was drowning would u save me loool
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tell me how the cats are from time to time, i would rlly love that. & ill update u on me and coco sometimes too. just until we r both ready to move on
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i hope you have a good day & weekend. i dont want to make things hard for you so i wont continue a convo but ill write whenever smth comes to mind
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hehe but dont listen to it too much bc idw u or me to get sin. but yh, thatll remind me of u now. & ur not weak, its okay to be upset about it
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yk that song by JB called stuck in the moment, listen to it (not today bc friday), its so fitting for us lol & its a good song hahaha
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its okay, i cried every single time lolll. im a crybaby. but knowing you care just as much as i do makes me feel not so stupid about it
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ofc, u dont have to reply to them. in my mind youll always be reading them, even when the day you stop doing so comes
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ill rant to you on here from time to time, even if we eventually stop checking in, its acc a nice way of me unloading without dragging u back in
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sometimes i feel like ranting on here to u, i know thats not a good idea, so i wont do it, but maybe ill do it anonymously. it might help me lol
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u dont have to reply to this one but i was thinking of getting back into reading, i have a book acc on ig, maybe ill get back into that
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its cloudy here, but yk, i feel at peace just as much as i feel sad. maybe bc u gave me a sense of hope that there ARE beautiful people out there
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i was going to say i miss u but i dont want to say things that will make it harder for u to move on. so instead ill say i hope its sunny where u are
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i feel like becoming a better person because of you. having met you made me reflect a lot on who i am, and i love that, i wish i could thank you
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i feel like writing so many poems about you