To: Murs
And no strings attached, if that triggers your worries. I swear on Kremlo - your wellbeeig and wants matter way more than my wishes. That's all, hdl.
To: Murs
I forgot smthing importand, sorry! If you're unwell, need help or comfort or just miss the cats, you know you're always welcome here. No words needed.
To: Murs
Oh! Juuust to make sure you know I'm not one of the trolls pretending to be someone else here - I have a rosanen Hexenkessel pendant on my smartphone.
To: Murs
PS. Really hope I'm not hurting you, that you're not here or think you made me crazy. I'm not, just coping weirdly. I want you to happily enjoy life.
To: Murs
If you want to try more healthy again, take all the time you need. Once you feel ready - reach out. Let's talk. Until then, dein Maedchen/Hase/Mausi
To: Murs
I won't say goodbye because this isn't a goodbye. I don't want to be apart. I want you. If you don't feel the same don't worry, that's okay.
To: Murs
I don't like promises so I'll act instead. No more unsent messages. Working on beeing a more secure partner and person. Enjoying life. Beeing myself.
To: Murs
I hate not beeing able to apologize to you. Not seeing you smile. Not knowing if you are well. But I respect the no contact that you called out.
To: Murs
And despite me beeing clouded by my own issues you made me feel loved and seen. That's why I can't or want to shake the hope that this isn't the end.
To: Murs
When I said I believe we can become something great I was foolis. You, we, were already great! And beeing with you didn't waste my time, I cherish it!
To: Murs
I'm sorry for not always apprecciating your efforts by not handling my adhd better, arguing, beeing insecure, self-doubting and slow working on these.
To: Murs
That's why I always fought, always stayed and why loosing you hurts so much. Because to me you weren't just a boyfriend. You were my partner.
To: Murs
I'm saying it because you always felt right, familiar. I love you in this deep way of loving a partner who's smile makes you feel calm and secure.
To: Murs
To say I don't deal well with loss would be an understatement, lol! But seriously - I don't want to lose you. And I'm not saying that bc I am hurting.
To: Murs
My head is full of happy memories wih you. You didn't hurt me but the thought of not having you by my side anymore. You are the missing puzzle piece.
To: Murs
I need to be allowed to type the next words once outside of my notebook, please. They are emotional so don't read if you don't want to know.
To: Murs
I hope you are. Healing and well. I am working on my own healing and happyness aswell - I might have an promising job opportunity! Staying calm tho
To: Murs
I never intended you to see them. I wanted you to see me happy and well so you could heal, not beeing tortured by guilt and grieve and worry about me.
To: Murs
Ik I don't need to say it since you know me but anyway - none of my messages was mean. I'm afraid bc of that they must have tortured you even more.
To: Murs
I'm sorry you had to see the toll this took on me - wish I was able to hide my pain better. It's not your fault, you were just hurting & overwhelmed 2
To: Murs
Bc there is noone to blame but the happenings we faced - we both tried as hard as we could and we both made mistakes along the way. That's just human.
To: Murs
Ik they mean well, trying to judge you so i can be angry at you but tbh that's not fair on you, so I end up defending you and missing you even more.
To: Murs
Hey. I just wanted to apologize for not beeing to stay calm and for using these websites. I'm still talking to friends but it doesn't really help...
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