To: MySun
Oh! And well well well, would you look at the time. hahahah
To: MySun
I'll always love you J and nothing can change that. Even after feeling unloved by you for so long I still feel this way, and I'm okay with that now.
To: MySun
I know it's asking a lot. So I don't blame you if you don't want to deal with that. I want to change and be better. Dunno if I can do it without you.
To: MySun
I really want to. But I need you to be present. I'm needy asf bcos that hasn't gotten to truly heal. But I feel like with you it can finally do so.
To: MySun
I'm scared of love since I was always abandoned. Maybe I pushed away everyone else scared of being hurt. But with you it's different. I want to try.
To: MySun
I would probably want to hug you if I did see you again, but I would hold myself back scared that you wouldn't want it. Sometimes I think
To: MySun
the same thing? What if we read the negative posts and thought it was our person, when in reality we both wanted the same?
To: MySun
I'm convinced now that you probably haven't written anything to me, and I was delusional. But sometimes I wonder, y'know? What if we were both doing
To: MySun
somewhere. Or maybe you never cared at all. I spent all this time imagining a future, and I think my ego got hurt hating to be wrong about it all.
To: MySun
I hope you're doing well. I pray and think of you a lot. The new place is cozy btw, I wish you were in it with me. Sometimes I wonder if I went wrong
To: MySun
I used to come on these everyday scouring everything psychotically for a glimpse of you. I still hope we'll be in each other's lives again.
To: MySun
It's been a while hasn't it? I've been trying to learn to live without you since you aren't here. I have so much happening in the upcoming year.