To: nikolai
i actually still find myself missing you. youre the worst and cruelest yet i still long for what used to be. i cant admit this to anyone.
To: Nikolai
I still think you're my soulmate even after everything that happened
To: nikolai
god im so pathetic over you, its sickening. what have you done to me baby?
To: nikolai
still always crying to my friends about you. telling them how bad i want us to be endgame.
To: nikolai
its stupid how much i still love you, even though you dont. i still love you just as much as i used to, no matter the bitterness and anger i feel.
To: nikolai
i wish you felt the same way as i did.
To: nikolai
i know we probably wont ever be able to go back to how things were, and that destroys me so badly.
To: nikolai
its been like 3 months, but i still feel just the same as i did in all these submissions.
To: nikolai
i still miss you so indescribably much everyday.
To: nikolai
youve already moved on so quick, its so unfair
To: nikolai
its the first time i ever got so harsh with you, you didnt even try to understand me and just blocked me instead because you got hurt. what about me?
To: nikolai
i know you love(d) me, but clearly not as much as i did
To: nikolai
youre so cruel, sweetheart
To: nikolai
got busy and forgot about this site for a while, holy thats a lot of submissions lol
To: nikolai
you didnt tell me youll come back this time, im so worried and scared about it. i dont know how ill love or live without you.
To: nikolai
you cared alot when i was yours, and id give anything to have that version of you back again.
To: nikolai
at times, its really hard to tell whether you actually care or not.
To: nikolai
i dreamt about you today. it was a bitter one, but atleast we were talking. i cant act like i hated it when i just want any way to feel close to you.
To: nikolai
just seeing shenfan makes me sad now. theyre my favorite ship ever, but all i can think of when i see them is you, and how we used to be.
To: nikolai
someone called me their sweet boy today, it just disgusted me. im only your sweet boy, and i always will be.
To: nikolai
i miss you so unbearably much, my love.
To: nikolai
im really sorry. im sorry i told you to not reply, i didnt actually mean it at all. i do want you to reply, i wanted to keep talking to you so bad.
To: nikolai
you were still so sweet to me, still calling me all the petnames you used to. it really made me break down.
To: nikolai
im sorry for breaking no contact. i was so happy when you replied, atleast its something, atleast you dont hate me.
To: nikolai
my cousin was talking about her bf alot, from the way she described, he seemed similar to you. it made me think of you alot and i was about to bawl.
To: nikolai
i miss you so much, every single day. its unbearable, how will i go on like this? i wish things didnt have to play out like this.
To: nikolai
i still listen to the playlists you made for me like everyday. thank you for not privating them my love
To: nikolai
god this is embarrassing. i am quite embarrassing.
To: nikolai
i had my friends make a channel for me in our server after our breakup so that i could emo rant about you there, they bully me a lot but its okay sigh
To: nikolai
i really hated it when you told me to not say that i love you more,when you told me im the one who has no idea.you are seriously the one with no idea.
To: nikolai
do you really care? you seem so unaffected, while ive been so miserable that random people are messaging me to ask if im okay. do you miss me at all?
To: nikolai
i cant believe new years is so soon. i was so excited about going to 2026 with you.
To: nikolai
we were talking about pokemon, and i found myself bringing up your favourites, asking if they know them. they didn't though, such losers
To: nikolai
I wanna remain your fool. I don't wanna stop loving you or yearning for you, no matter how much it hurts. I just want you, nobody else.
To: nikolai
I wanna remain your fool. I want to keep loving you and yearning for you, no matter how much it might hurt. I just want you, nobody else.
To: nikolai
I wonder if you ever found a website like this, that you'd write to me? I think I've wrote 36 of these for you. I must be mad. And gay.
To: nikolai
I wonder if you ever found a website like this, that you'd write to me? I think I've wrote 36 of these for you. I must be crazy. And homosexual.
To: nikolai
I just wanna remain your fool. I don't ever want to stop loving you and yearning for you no matter how much it hurts. I just want you, no one else.
To: nikolai
I wonder if you ever found a website like this, that you'd write to me? I think I've wrote 36 of these for you. I must be crazy.
To: nikolai
I keep messing up and writing in white, this phones glitching a bit. I wanted to log in my account and check up on you, but I couldn't.So I came here.
To: nikolai
I wanna remain a fool for you. I want to keep loving you and yearning for you, no matter how much it might hurt. I just want you, nobody else.
To: nikolai
I hate when people say "there's other fish in the sea" because truly, no one could compare to you. none of them could come close to your perfection.
To: nikolai
I mean it when I say I won't love someone like I love you. I adore you so indescribably much, you have me a total fool for you.
To: nikolai
can you tell how much I miss you? Its even scary to me. now I know truly what loving someone and longing for them feels like.
To: nikolai
I realised Ive been saying "I wish" alot here. im very sincere each time though, I really do wish for everything to revert back, even if impossible.
To: nikolai
we were talking about pokemon, and I found myself bringing up your favourites, asking if they know them. they didn't though, such dummies
To: nikolai
I've been sleeping over at my aunt's, writing this on my cousin's phone.I wish i could come back to you telling me about how much you missed me again.
To: nikolai
i wish i could get you off my mind, even if it was for a while.
To: nikolai
i wish i could be able to have the blessing to call myself yours again.
To: nikolai
i love how youd make me feel like im atleast a little pretty.
To: nikolai
its so adorable when youd start to worry about other people, because ive only ever had my eyes on you. never paid much attention to anybody else.
To: nikolai
god,ive always said this,but words could never come close to describing how cute you are.its mostly why i fell for you,youre so adorable effortlessly.
To: nikolai
it was so cute, soo cute when you were asking me about my friends. i love that side of you so much, why is every word you say so adorable?
To: nikolai
i miss how youd always reassure me when you noticed im upset, even though i always stayed quiet about it. thank you for not getting annoyed with me.
To: nikolai
i had someone random message me today asking about us, saying how they thought we would last forever since we seemed so in love. that stings.
To: nikolai
you once told me im gentle, and it never leaves my mind. i was never much of a gentle person to begin with, but with you? im as gentle as can be.
To: nikolai
i remember i was so excited for this short winter break, just because i thought id be able to spend the entire day talking to you just like in july.
To: nikolai
i miss it when id get home or wake up to hundreds of messages from you. it was my favorite thing in the whole world reading through them all.
To: nikolai
i still think of you whenever i see our duos, whether its ivantill or shenfan or anything we ever dedicated to us. do you?
To: nikolai
i really hope you never come to hate me, i hope you understand my actions were only so you could be okay. i dont know if ill handle you hating me.
To: nikolai
am i still your sweet boy? its one of the first petnames you called me. i still remember how flustered i would get whenever you did so.
To: nikolai
it feels so weird waking up without your goodmorning messages, and going to bed without your goodnights. havent been able to get good sleep since.
To: nikolai
i broke down infront of my sister today, cried like a total idiot because i dont know how to do this without you.
To: nikolai
everything hurts so much without you. i broke down infront of my sister today, cried like an idiot because i dont know how to do this without you.
To: nikolai
you already seem to be doing fine, while your absence is making me break down every day. this sucks so much baby, i wish it never happened.
To: nikolai
everything hurts so much without you. i was always more than fine before because you were always there with me, just being your adorable self.
To: nikolai
meant to use grey for that one. i wanted to use dark red, since its your favorite. its silly how i still remember everything which is your favorite.
To: nikolai
i broke down infront of my sister today, cried like a total loser because i dont know how to do this without you.
To: nikolai
logged in my tiktok alt which i barely use today, my fyp was full of back to me lyrics. guess the universe is just flipping me off now.
To: nikolai
you were the only good thing about my life, the best thing ever. it all hurts so much when ive lost my everything.
To: nikolai
i would travel through every ring of hell and go against everyone and everything if it meant i could have you in the end.
To: nikolai
i really hope youll come back to me, i hope everything will be the same again. this is just temporary, right baby? youre still my baby, right?
To: nikolai
i miss you more than i could ever describe, my stupid shakespeare. ill never start to love you even a little less than i do right now.
To: nikolai
i look through my whole album of you every night before bed, it makes me sob until i can fall asleep, but atleast i feel a little closer to you.
To: nikolai
i didnt know someone like ME could ever cry so much over someone, or ever be this in love with a person. i dont think ill ever love this way again.
To: nikolai
i wish i never said any of that, i wish i made you stay instead of being selfless. not being able to talk to you is really ruining me.
To: nikolai
you already seem to be doing just fine without me, while im still breaking down everyday because of your absence. its a bit unfair.
To: nikolai
i miss you so much baby, its genuinely tearing me apart.
To: nikolai
it feels so weird going to sleep and waking up without your goodmorning and goodnight messages. i miss you so much my stupid shakespeare
To: Nikolai
It was supposed to be you. .,.
To: Nikolai
i miss you niko. you were the one, and i've been so sure of that since i met you. im sorry we grew apart. i miss you a lot. love ya dawg.
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