To: Serenity
I hope you leave that stupid program you want so badly, satisfied. Let's hope we never cross paths again, Serenity. Goodbye, I love you.
To: Serenity
I hope you grow to be satisfied with yourself. Let's hope we never cross paths again. I no longer wish to know you. Goodbye Serenity. I love you.
To: Serenity
But I hate that I've accepted it. I wish you the best, truly. I wish you would grow old and make a name for yourself like you explained you'd want. --
To: Serenity
of days had just announced she'd be giving her all for another. I'm no longer angry. Yes, I'm upset, but those are just feelings of disappointment. --
To: Serenity
I don't know why I do that. Instead of grieving or letting myself cry, I treat it as the smallest inconvenience, like the person I crave at the purest
To: Serenity
The worst part is, it hurts a lot more than I initially thought it would. Yet I'm still living my day out like it was an average day. --
To: Serenity
3 days early. It was supposed to be the 5th you really know how to show up at the worst times. Don't you? --
To: Serenity
I'm happy you can take my past actions into account and stand by them. I don't regret it, I don't believe I'll ever regret this choice. --
To: Serenity
And I hope you know that call was my final goodbye. I lied. I won't ever pick that phone call up again, and we won't ever hang out once more. --
To: Serenity
In 20 days, I will lose the one person I've loved for years. Thank you for talking with me, truth be told. We won't ever be friends again Serenity. --
To: Serenity
Your name is in everything I write, I cant tell if I like that. But I miss you, and I know I don't like that. Goodbye Serenity.
To: Serenity
You were right. The alcohol, the nicotine, the substances you told me to quit, never did feel as good as the arms that you'd wrap around me.
To: Serenity
time. I miss you, that's why you shouldn't acknowledge my name. You shouldn't even give it a second thought. It's not your responsibility.
To: Serenity
to contact with you urgently tells my chest to break, tells my eyes it's time to cry, tells my nose to breathe uncoordinated. I cry. Every single--
To: Serenity
built up, to get over this feeling of wanting you nearby. Shattered. I broke down as soon as I read that message, any small reference--
To: Serenity
Please don't acknowledge me. I'm trying my best to sever the one-sided ties I have with you. Please don't say, "Hi." Any progress I finally--
To: Serenity
just so I can see your face again. You're always there, it gives me the scraps of comfort I so urgently need. I'm sorry, I miss you.
To: Serenity
God, I miss you. I feel like such an idiot. Everyone's telling me to let you go, and God am I trying. I go to bed earlier and take frequent naps-
To: Serenity
Deserved to feel aggression towards her. She did the one thing I wouldn't. Settle. I love you, and I truly never will forget you, Serenity.
To: Serenity
The feeling in my stomach no longer twisted at the thought of her. Just happy. Happy you found her. Sure, my chest burns, but I never truly--
To: Serenity
In some way, it felt more like an acceptance. That you had found someone willing of your love that would take it. Even if I felt the need to cry--
To: Serenity
letting the cool water drown out the sun that still beamed on me, and even if this was my body unconsciously punishing myself for hurting you--
To: Serenity
because maybe then, I wouldn't produce enough energy to cry. As I got there, I walked in after setting my items down, and floated in the cold water.--
To: Serenity
They match to the pattern of the blanket you got for me 3 years ago. As I walked, I let the sun swarm my body with heat, forcing the sweat out of me--
To: Serenity
I told my mom today that I went to school. I walked to the beach, hid my swimsuit under the pajamas I can't take off once they are on because--
To: Serenity
held me so tightly. How they were able to lift me with such ease, how you felt right wrapped in mine. I miss you, Serenity.
To: Serenity
for you. It's truly become such a reoccurring feeling. I lay in her arms, yet her thin arms would never give me the comfort yours did when they--
To: Serenity
Tried. I really did try. I tried the other person, and still, if they held my body to sleep, I'd still wake up with the overwhelming feeling of need--
To: Serenity
I haven't written to you in some time, haven't I? Perhaps the idea of me finally losing hope could finalize your peace. I'm sorry, I tried, I really--
To: Serenity
these. Let you know I never gave up, but everyone wants me to be happy with her. She's sweet to me, but she isn't you. I can learn to give up.
To: Serenity
consider her. I believe I'm going to. I'll wait one more month, May 5th. I'll stop writing to you if you never come back. If you do, I'll show you--
To: Serenity
Met someone, I'll always be waiting. Yet I need to let go of this idea of you. She's nice. You'd like her. She's been waiting for me to atleast--
To: Serenity
you, over and over. We'd never work, even if I tried my hardest. I love you, but God do I have my issues.
To: Serenity
then again, you and I both know if I had gotten what I wanted. I'd mess it up, run away, never take responsibility for how I've continuously hurt--
To: Serenity
No matter how many times I apologize to you in my head, or even slightly, directed to you. I crave forgiveness, so I wouldn't fear talking to you--
To: Serenity
Was I too difficult to continue working towards? I'm dwelling on the past a lot. I recognize that everything was on my own accord.
To: Serenity
So, in some way, I guess my body craves answers. Needs them, maybe then I could sleep. Maybe then I wouldn't need to trick my body with medicine.
To: Serenity
bit. Do you love her? If I came into your life once more, would she still be your main priority? Should I even ask these questions? They haunt me--
To: Serenity
like when you were happy. Maybe you were tired and didn't feel like taking the picture. Because you surely looked proud, I suppose she deserved that--
To: Serenity
Saw her post today, you were in it. You didn't look happy, but maybe I'm grasping onto the last bits of straws I have. Maybe I knew what it looked--
To: Serenity
I know that I need it. I don't want to dream of you again, but I also never want to forget your face. Guess I'm stuck? Would you be happy if I was?
To: Serenity
Rushing to hold you, to see you, to finally hear your voice light up once more. Yet, that's my selfishness talking again. I don't deserve it because--
To: Serenity
That I, too, was always yours. I can never sleep peacefully again, can I? Not when feelings like this are telling me to rush in and beg for you back--
To: Serenity
you. I don't want to keep running. I want to settle, stare at you while you stare at me back, and we can finally have this silent acknowledgement --
To: Serenity
I can no longer sleep, knowing that once my eyes are closed, you'll be there. Sadly, my body is still reaching for the feeling of running away from--
To: Serenity
I'll keep dreaming of you, even if it wakes me up multiple times in the night. Maybe I need the reminder that I messed up, I won't have you again.
To: Serenity
I keep writing these with no consideration of how you might feel if you ever find them, if you do. Ignore it, move on, keep going. please.
To: Serenity
up to the thought of you. I need your arms around me again. I want to play in your hair, hold you back, kiss your cheeks until you smile. I'm Sorry.
To: Serenity
It's no longer funny, I can't laugh it off when it hurts. I crave you horribly. I can barely eat. My chest hurts so bad, I don't want to keep waking--
To: Serenity
Woke up today, I dreamt of you. It hurts so bad knowing you're not actually here. I didn't actually kiss your cheek asleep, Serenity, I miss you. --
To: Serenity
You were my birthday wish.
To: Serenity
You'll always be on my mind, no matter who I'm with. Say the words, and I'll be back. Trust me. Everyone, but you know how much I love you.
To: Serenity
I don't deserve you. I hope you're really happy with her. I've been told you are, heard she treats you well. Doesnt make me happy, but I like to know.
To: Serenity
I've never been into religion or religious beliefs, but when it comes to you, almost every night, I pray, I pray so much for you.
To: Serenity
apologizing, maybe in some twisted way you'll hear it. See it, feel it, believe it, maybe forgive it. I don't know. This is such a waste of my time.
To: Serenity
I miss you a lot. So very badly, I have to be reminded by my own mom that I lost you. It makes me sick, you're too divine to lose. If I keep -
To: Serenity
I'm a liar. I miss you. I can't move on
To: Serenity
I believe I'm going to give up on you now. I still love you. Come back when you can. I'll stop seeking you out. I love you, always my pretty girl.
To: Serenity
If I begged, pleaded, and made my point. Would you ever come back? Is that selfish to ask? Most days, I hope you never find these, somedays I do. Ily.
To: Serenity
You look so happy, it makes me wonder if I had tried, then I'd see such a smile too. I've met many people, I've held others, no ones like you. No one
To: Serenity
Seeing you with her makes me sick. Is this how I made you feel? So sick your chest starts to tighten as your eyes fight tears? I'm so very sorry.
To: Serenity
You know I've written to you for three years, nearing four, anytime I miss you. I've hated loving you, I've hated missing you, but I can't help it.Ily
To: Serenity
Hey maybe we can play 21 on roblox one more time. Before I give up on you entirely, could you allow me that? Is that selfish to ask? Let me know Ily.
To: Serenity
I still love you. I never lied when I'd tell you I did, I bet this makes me the fattest coward. Having to admit this to a site rather than tell you. S
To: serenity
you are so innocent I hope you stay like that forever and have a good life no matter what comes in your way you will keep going and not stop.
To: Serenity
I dont miss us or what we had anymore but i do miss our friendship even though i truly loved you at one point you didnt seem to care at all -Best Buds
To: Serenity
ma vlast no. 2 vltava "the moldau", by bedrich smetana. 1 minute and 3 seconds mark
To: Serenity
deep breath in, deep breath out.
To: Serenity
I never let any disconcerting information i heard stop me either. I was and still am smitten.
To: Serenity
And I may be completely stupid for this, but I need to keep fighting. It's never over.
To: Serenity
And I may be a complete idiot for this, but I have to keep fighting for this. I'm running off pure resolve, just for you.
To: Serenity
I... can't sleep.
To: Serenity
See you around.
To: Serenity
I should probably be sleeping.
To: Serenity
...if i didn't TRY! ATLEAST ONCE!
To: Serenity
It may be stupid to do so, but I really have to try because despite the sheer unknown and all the worry 1-2 years ago, I couldn't live with myself --
To: Serenity
I have to try.
To: Serenity
still yearning for you.
To: Serenity
And somehow, the last 23 months dedicated entirely to you, despite my tragic failure.
To: Serenity
Even before I saw you for the first time, imagining a life with anyone else felt foreign...
To: Serenity
I've never dreamt of a timeline where I ended up with someone else.
To: Serenity
(08/06/2025, 1031 PM) i am crumbling at the thought of myself yet again being my own worst enemy and screwing myself again. It can't happen again.
To: Serenity
i'm doing this all for you. (08/06/2025, 935 PM)
To: Serenity
oh God oh God oh God i can't back out now
To: Serenity
i've carried the thought of you through everything
To: Serenity
i hope your heart is open. i have a good feeling about this.
To: Serenity
It gave me the strength to prevent myself from crumbling into bitterness during my spiral. It gave me the strength to not give up on being good.
To: Serenity
everything is entirely dedicated to you
To: Serenity
I know I kinda relented from posting about you on this website for a few days, trust me, entirely dedicated to you.
To: Serenity
Still yearning for you.
To: Serenity
even before I knew you existed I missed you
To: Serenity
Well, that wasnt THE moment I knew it had to be you, that was.. the moment I saw you. But you get it right?
To: Serenity
The moment I was told I needed to cry when I saw my bride walk down the aisle I knew it had to be you
To: Serenity
I have to ask, was that a sign?
To: Serenity
i live to run into you someday
To: Serenity
whenever YOU feel any sort of sense of hopelessness or sadness just know that even to this day im still yearning for you and motivated by you
To: Serenity
or destroy it. whatever you want.
To: Serenity
i would save civilization for you
To: Serenity
When I was told so, I never wanted to believe the notion that ALL 'love is war' because i believed OUR love would be the only war worth fighting for.
To: Serenity
still yearning for you...
To: Serenity
the only one I'd ever get on one knee for
To: Serenity
your beauty has me sleepless
To: Serenity
can't help but continue yearning
To: Serenity
i really did
To: Serenity
in silence i hear your name and in darkness i see your face. still yearning for you
To: Serenity
to this day i still think about you a whole hell of a lot. i don't know why. i'm so drawn to you and i can't figure out why. every. waking. moment.
To: serenity
i hope shayne treats you well.
To: Serenity
you are the most beautiful girl i've ever seen and i blew it. i wish they never posted it. i wish i just talked to you. i yearn for you everyday.<br><br>-M
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