To: Waleed
21st dec to 21st apr. 1 am. 4 months. Guess what did i earn. You telling me you don't want me. I can't unlove you. But I'll be fine.
To: Waleed
"at least talk like an adult about this" i couldn't with you. Coz you loved the scared little kid in me an said its okay to turn my brain off with you
To: Waleed
"we should end it. I can't find a single reason to keep forcing it" my head's numb. And my heart is lost. I shouldn't have out my entire trust in you.
To: Waleed
You blanme me for you being cold. Ig you were too busy enlisting "reasons" not to be with me. You said you got plenty. How come i never thought of any
To: Waleed
The day i found out you were serious about us i thought i owned everything in the world. 21.12.25. would it haunt me forever?
To: Waleed
The day you kissed me i dared not keep the date in mind. I believed I'd have a lot more I won't have to think of this one only for years.
To: Waleed
For everyone i built walls around me. For you i didn't just leave gaps in them i tore them down. Now I'm ruining my eyes asking myself where are you?
To: Waleed
Remember you asked me to 'write it somewhere else'? i am. And its not helping. I still wonder why you chose to be cruel everytime we had an issue
To: Waleed
Everytime you held my hand while crossing a road i felt like you'd never let go of my hand. Did i make a fool of myself..
To: Waleed
My body and soul are tired and aching to the core. I wish you knew. But the problem is.. you do. And you're still not here. Goodnight.
To: Waleed
What if one random day i get over you? But that's only possible if i wanna get over you. I love you. I never thought it would become painful
To: Waleed
I have to bear the weight of things i can't say to you. So saying it here doesn't help either. And let me tell you.. they're breaking me apart..
To: Waleed
Sometimes i wonder what's the point of talking to you here. You don't know and you don't care. And doesn't lighten my heart either.
To: Waleed
Everyday when i wake up without you i feel like this is the hardest thing I'd have to do today. And then its a battle just as hard at night..
To: Waleed
I wonder why i go after you even when you are rude, insensitive amd inconsiderate everytime i text.
To: Waleed
Oh hey you texted back after a whole day. I'll send you the rest of the list later. In case you've forgotten i love you. Always have.
To: Waleed
Part 2. Close to you(Gracie Abrams)Need your love(OneRepublic)Message in a bottle, Fortnite, Opalite and more (Taylor Swift)Bittersweet(Madison Beer)
To: Waleed
Part 1. Fall into me(Forest Blakk)Love me not (Ravyn Lenae, Rex orange county) Little bit better (Caleb hearn, Rosie) Moth to a flame (You know who)
To: Waleed
We aren't talking but i wanna share the ones i listened the most to
To: Waleed
Been listening to music all day. Yk i really don't like doing that but i needed a distraction since you aren't texting me back and its killing me
To: Waleed
I wish we'd never been in love.. I'm ruining myself. I'm drowning everyday. You don't know or do you not care
To: Waleed
Going to sleep without you is hard but i lie to myself till the morning and doze off smh. Waking up without you isnt okay . Leaves me broken everyday
To: Waleed
How do i live without you..
To: Waleed
Syed Waleed bin Waseem. I love you. I really really do. My eyes fill up as i type it coz it feels pathetic. Who am i talking to..
To: Waleed
I have always loved you. You're not here but telling you this shatters my ego in a million little pieces.. i never cared anyway. Always meant it.
To: Waleed
Why did i keep holding on to it if it never existed? Was it that fragile? You said you loved me yet i feel unloved, untouched and unknown. Who was i?
To: Waleed
I'm tired, hurt, devastated. Worst of all.. hopeless. I WILL BE ALRIGHT ON MY OWN. But I'd never forget this one.
To: Waleed
There's peace in knowing you'd never find these messages. Tho its strange how alone you made me.. I never thought I'd say i feel lonely.
To: Waleed
Did all that ever happen? Or did i wake up from a dream? Did we confess? Did you say you'd always be here? Did i say i know you'd never hurt me?
To: Waleed
I'm so sleepy.. yet i keep waking up over and over again waiting for you, seeing if you thought of me even once..
To: Waleed
You said you didn't want me anymore. It will hurt my geart to the core for a long time. But then I'll be okay. I'll make my peace with it. I hope i do
To: Waleed
'you'd regret not replying to me right now for your whole life momina' you'd make me regret it anyway won't youbys?
To: Waleed
I miss you so much. Ik I've been mad at you. I still am. But i wanna take a break and hug you and sleep with you. You can resume it later if you want
To: Waleed
I wish you hadn't treated me that way
To: Waleed
I love you. Ugh Ik.. but i do
To: Waleed
Today i called you coz i was alone and scared. But you were busy. Turns out.. i can be okay by myself. I always will be. In case you care to know..
To: Waleed
"write stuff elsewhere mera dimagh kharab nai karo mazeed" 5am and I'm still stuck here. I really shouldn't be in contact with you.
To: Waleed
I hope you find someone who is just as much of a je.rk to you as you are to me sometimes. Only then you'd know you did hurt me. A lot.
To: Waleed
'stop texting me'. I will. And you'd love it I'm sure. Idk whether to wish the same for you as I'm experiencing rn or pray you find a better one
To: Waleed
I think i should stick to talking to you just here. At least you won't subtly threaten to leave. goodnight. I love you. tho you make it hard at times.
To: Waleed
I told you there was only one thing i needed from you. Trust me when i say smth. You straight up called me a liar multiple times.
To: Waleed
I hope i never recover from the words you say. So i can remind myself of this pain.
To: Waleed
"if you somehow manage to recover us from this you are answerable to me don't ever forget that" i hope idon't recover from this. ishould remember this
To: Waleed
I hope you find someone who is just as rude to you as you are to me sometimes. Only then you'd know you did hurt me. A lot.
To: Waleed
"write stuff elsewhere mera dimagh kharab nai karo mazeed" oh i do waleed. A hundred things that you pushed me too far to say to you directly.
To: Waleed
"because it's your fault" I hope i don't forget this one. So i can always revisit the memory of being mistrusted the hundredth time.
To: Waleed
I was talking to you on WhatsApp i left the last message here incomplete. Now i dont remember what i was saying.You've probably gotten used to it
To: Waleed
You're my home. And i have never been safer and happier anyplace else. It's weird how i found the
To: Waleed
I hope you never forget how much i love you. Thank you for being not the best part but the whole meaning of life.
To: Waleed
My heart is filled with love and respect for you. You're the person I've wanted the most. I prayed and begged to have you. Can you believe? I did so?
To: Waleed
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I REALLY REALLY DO
To: Waleed
Woke up to you by my side after so long. My heart knows no worries today. I didn't know I'd have it all when i texted you for the first time years ago
To: Waleed
I love you so much
To: Waleed
"you do not want to spend the rest of your life with me. leave me alone." Good going. Waleed. Wish you knew how cruel you sound rn.
To: Waleed
As we locked those gates there was this terrifying void I missed you. So itook one thinking of all the times i was there talking to you over the years
To: Waleed
I never stopped plucking leaves even when you said we were done yhe last one is fron khala's place. The day she left. The moment we locked the gates.
To: Waleed
I love you so much.if i have you, i have everything.
To: Waleed
Everytime you leave and are mean you feed my fears. And then complain about the fears. What do i do? Do you wish i was mute..
To: Waleed
I won't complain. It's of no use if its obly gonna get you mad and distant. I love you more than life. But you hurt me. Once, twice, a hundred times.
To: Waleed
Remember you called me loml But ykw you're the loss of my life. The void i won't ever be able to fill. I'll let you go coz you want that. I love you.
To: Waleed
Nothing has ever been this painful. And I've been through a lot. But nothing compares to this. I hope you're happy if this is what you wanted from us.
To: Waleed
Shouldn't really say this during azan. Buti wish i have a complete memory reset.
To: Waleed
i hate myself so much for everything that happened. I wish i forget it all. I wish you forget it all too even though you don't need to. You're good.
To: Waleed
Congratulations. You're the first person I've ever begged. I hope you're happy.
To: Waleed
I was dying to meet you. Counted days and barely made it. Despite you coldly pushing me away i asked just to see you once more. You asked "purpose?"
To: Waleed
I hate you so much. I hate the fact that you make me wanna rip my heart out abd scratch you out of it. But I'd still be unable to.. how could you..
To: Waleed
I hate your guts so much. I spent eid without you. I spent my birthday without you. You never realized i needed you. Or you did and ignored either way
To: Waleed
I hate dinosaurs flowers leaves and lavender. I hate everything i loved. I push people away. I yell. You won. I hate the person i am, like you do.
To: Waleed
I hate dinosaurs flowers leaves and the colour lavender. I yell cry and see my flaws that you saw. You won. I hate the person i am.
To: Waleed
I hate every sec of it. I hope you stay happy. But i wish you get to feel this pain once just for one split second..
To: Waleed
Did i just ask you to meet me one more time? Fml.
To: Waleed
Why would you hurt me like that? What did i do to deserve being thrown away like you never knew me. I wish we never met. My heart hurts. My eyes hurt.
To: Waleed
You won't see these. That's why i chose this place. Where i can cry and yell at the top of my lungs. Would've hurt more if you saw and ignored me.
To: Waleed
I hate how i can't unlove you.. i hate how i was the last of your worries.. was i just some toy you owned? I love you despite this piercing pain.
To: Waleed
Out of all days i thought today you might come and see I'm falling apart and hold me and save me from crumbling to dust. you didn't. who was i to you?
To: Waleed
I loved you more than i was capable of.. you broke me the way i thought wasn't possible..
To: Waleed
Ig i shouldn't have told you how much i loved you..
To: Waleed
You're a gnawing feeling in the back of my head. I don't even like you anymore, it's been years. Why do I think about you then?
To: Waleed
It's been years since I liked you high school. You probably have someone by now. But I still think of you. I search the internet, but you're nowhere..
To: Waleed
I should've kept texting you back then, when we reconnected for a while. I wish you would text me, I even posted things you love on my story.
To: Waleed
I had another dream about you even though i told myself not to think about you anymore.
To: Waleed
You show up in my dreams sometimes, and then i wonder how you’re doing. i wish i told you how i felt
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