To: Alexandre
Well, it's been two years (I think) since we last talked, you simply disappeared, I miss you, you were a good friend.
To: alexandre
i crawl into a future where you no longer exist beside me i hate it. i want you everywhere.
To: alexandre
i think too much time passed baby for us to find each other again. i lost hope waiting but i will always love you too even if only in memories
To: alexandre
the moon is still beautiful, even with the fog
To: alexandre
hello, hope you feeling good, happy birthday!
To: alexandre
every soul im trying to fulfill with lack of yours La lecon particuliere
To: alexandre
the moon is pretty, isnt it?
To: alexandre
you taught me how to live without everyone, but you didnt teach me how to live without you
To: alexandre
please dont write anymore i know you care but i need to move on, ill always wish you peace, joy, exciting travels and beautiful life
To: alexandre
the only things we gonna be linked with are memories, that are gonna be fading away, i know you thinking about me sometimes, no need to type it here
To: alexandre
now that we become strangers, there is an echo of love that is still ringing but echoes at some point are gonna become softer, love is a choice
To: alexandre
which feels odd because i always thought we were bound to be together, it felt like i wanted my mind to be merged with yours and know you fully
To: alexandre
when i feel this pull to come here, there happens to be your message, the same day im checking, this synchronicity feels uncanny
To: alexandre
i know with time its gonna get better, and we gonna be able to fall in love again with others, its just so slow
To: alexandre
i feel even bad kissing a guy, feeling like its a betrayal to my heart, that is still wounded, and have only one person memorised
To: alexandre
i cried today, when i thought its getting better for past weeks, the memories of us are hunting me, i just want it to finally go away
To: alexandre
i hope one day youll find peace i couldnt give you, ill be wishing you good life from far away, always hoping youre okay, goodbye alex
To: alexandre
i understand now that holding on hurts us both, thank you for being my person for so long, i hope life will be kinder to you ahead
To: alexandre
and please dont hold your pain, share your burden with others, you dont need to grieve alone, please
To: alexandre
i will live with this guilt, that i didint ease your life, that you struggled so much i hope our love is gonna be lighter for our future partners
To: alexandre
thats true that you always gave a lot from yourself, to everyone, im so sorry i didint do more, or take this burden from you
To: alexandre
goodbye my love, i dont hate you but i cant keep loving someone who no longer wants to be loved by me
To: alexandre
knowing that you left a girl that was ready to give up everything, just to stay by your side
To: alexandre
i hope one day you gonna listen to our songs or pass the places we went to and youll remeber me not with guilt or regret but with quiet ache
To: alexandre
he is not there anymore and i need to accept it no matter how much it hurt
To: alexandre
but i wont beg you anymore, i wont send message hoping to wake up to version of you that was in love with me, because he is dead
To: alexandre
i always believed we would be the rare ones who make it through everything, and i believed when you said you cannot live without me
To: alexandre
i cant keep trying to reach someone that is no longer reaching back, im not angry at you, just sad, that all of those promises and love faded so fast
To: alexandre
the more im seeing this cold version of you, the more i cant believe i fell for you, i ruined my life just to be with you, because i loved you so much
To: alexandre
but after all of those years you chose yourself, you dont care about my pain anymore, only yours, and that shows your love was shallow, performative
To: alexandre
because i would always chose you, i wouldnt be able to see your pain, i would do anything to stop you hurting
To: alexandre
and yes im doing worse than you because in reality i loved you more, and if i you texted me the way i texted you i would come right back
To: alexandre
hope your new girlfriend is gonna be able to match your expectations because i gave you myself fully indeed
To: alexandre
you want love where someone gives world to you without you doing the same and thats not okay
To: alexandre
yes you also were uncomfortable but you never did anything major, you were always in stable situation
To: alexandre
you want type of love where someone would give world to you, i dropped so many things, i risked fights with my family, because i believed in us
To: alexandre
and again im so sorry i texted you that things when you had fun at concert, i hate hurting you, please live good - once your zing
To: alexandre
please dont respond to these, i know its gonna be another message explaining that we cant be together, which will only break my heart further
To: alexandre
it hurts so much, that for you to being happy means to have life without me, because for me, you were the only source of my joy
To: alexandre
its just so sad i am the only one that tries to reach you, and you are fine with no contact, maybe you feel relieved, finally happy, finally free
To: alexandre
i feel like im texting you because my heart is trying to constantly reach you, like i cant believe we never gonna be together again
To: alexandre
im sorry for ruining your day by that messages, everytime i send it i have little hope, you would want to come back to my arms
To: alexandre
you changed, and your love isnt as it was before, and i need to accept it, but its hard when i thought, i will be holding your hand when we are old
To: alexandre
i feel like if you truly loved me, you would do everything to stay, we would do compromises, just so we can be together, but your love wasnt as mine
To: alexandre
i truly hoped through this time, you would show up at my door, and we could be together again but you chose, life without me
To: alexandre
how couldnt i? i thought you were the love of my life, my forever, how could my everything lie to me? how could he lose feelings so fast?
To: alexandre
i am so sad that my family and friends were right, saying your poems and promises to me were only lies, and that i believed in every of them
To: alexandre
we went to construction side, couldnt stop thinking about you
To: alexandre
im sorry, i shouldnt text that sad things to you, i delated all of our chats, all of our pictures, i have no memories left, why cant i just let you go
To: alexandre
where is the man i knew? where is the heart i held so close?
To: alexandre
finally, thank you for your love, and always being there for me, you were my light and hope for better days, i will never forget you
To: alexandre
i truly hope i will fall in love with someone this much again, because i feel like its rare, and i wish that for you, because you deserve the best
To: alexandre
when its really bad i sleep with your blue jacket and holding hands with it, cuddling it and crying on it, because its the last thing i have from you
To: alexandre
i truly wish it could be different, maybe in another timeline we live in Italy, next to the beach and we are together, owning bakery and big garden.
To: alexandre
i dont want to make you feel bad, you have a right to chose your path even if its without me, its just very painful
To: alexandre
it wasnt just relationship to me, it was future, home, life, death, you were my world, i couldnt see anyone but you
To: alexandre
but you didnt and then i realised, you arent my alex anymore, our love died or your love died because you love something else more than me
To: alexandre
because my alex that was in love with me would always pick up, would want to know whats happening, and would want to fight for us
To: alexandre
i wanted to take everything back, begging you to come back, so we can repair our relationship, but you didnt pick up, and then i realised you let go
To: alexandre
you know when i called you that night, i wanted so bad to hear you voice, because for so many years you were everything to me
To: alexandre
i met a guy similar to you, he really likes radiohead and doing music, its so weird doing dating again when i thought im gonna get burried with you
To: alexandre
i saw our picture together when we were young on the bed of my mum old house, i was doing you a mask, i found that lately we did not even do those
To: alexandre
im sorry for being so selfish when we were together, we nearly did everything i wanted and we were doing very little of your things, it was not okay.
To: alexandre
its fine, after you didnt pick up, i realised i need to let you go, hope you gonna be happy on your new path, take care
To: alexandre
i found your jacket,the blue one you wore i held it close,cried on the floor,i whispered your name like it still meant home, but it doesnt,not anymore
To: alexandre
now memories of you will fade in turn like all your pictures i let burn
To: alexandre
you let me go im glad you did, no more waiting, no more what if, i wasnt the one you held in your soul, just someone who tried to make you whole
To: alexandre
dont call it love, what you did to me love doesnt ask to be set free, love doesnt walk when hearts still cry, it stays, it shows up, it doesnt lie
To: alexandre
i saved that picnic just for you, a small soft thing wed finally do but you left first, without goodbye now its just me and an empty sky
To: alexandre
you say you grieve, but still, you go what kind of love just lets me go?
To: alexandre
you said i was your greatest love, but left the moment it got tough, so if one day you feel alone, just know you let your home become unknown
To: alexandre
you said i am the one that makes you happy, that lights your soul, so why are you letting me go?
To: alexandre
you were my zing
To: alexandre
you said wed never fall apart,that I was written in your heart,no one else,no other way,now youre gone,I feel the ache,of every vow you chose to break
To: alexandre
i knew something was wrong, when you stopped coming, i felt it, a soft shift, like you were quietly letting go of us. i kept hoping i was imagining it
To: alexandre
my heart feels broken, shattered, once, you were the one who healed it now youre the one who caused it
To: alexandre
so why not speak instead of stay, pretending love could bend my way? now here i sit full of ache and wonder why you chose to wait
To: alexandre
i gave you calm not mountain peaks, warm talks on slow and rainy weeks. you smiled yet wanted something more, person i was never even before.
To: alexandre
so far away, yet so close, so different, yet the same, two hearts in sync, though worlds apart, bound by something we cant name
To: alexandre
i was trying to get access back to snapchat to see our memories, moments when we were together and everything was easier, i wasnt able, im so sad.
To: Alexandre
Its only been 5 months and u r already the most important man in my life. Idk if you're the right one, but I hope so. I love you with all my heart. -A
To: Alexandre
I love you and even though you struggle with self confidence issues I wish that you could see that you are beautiful.
To: alexandre
im scared that if there is gonna be a war, im not gonna die in your arms
To: alexandre
i would just want to fall into your arms, being in your warmth, just being next to you and see emotions on your face, your smile, tears, hope, pain
To: alexandre
im very upset about this whole situation
To: alexandre
i will love you forever, i wish our lives would be in our relationships favour, maybe our paths could cross later
To: alexandre
another night without your touch, without our lips touching together, without you cooking in the background..
To: alexandre
i think that both of us are just done with uncertainty.
To: alexandre
your arms are my peace, that im always gonna come back to.
To: alexandre
im crying for few days, i will drown in my tears.
To: alexandre
they say time heals all wounds, but what if I bleed endlessly?
To: alexandre
Reading our forever promises, heartbreaking, lost in the ache, unsure how to move forward.
To: alexandre
I didn't know that when im sad I'm becoming a poet I should be a soundcloud rapper.
To: alexandre
Stared at the chat all night, waited for a message from you, but no message came and maybe that's for the best. It will be easier to say goodbye.
To: alexandre
You said you love horses, I saw a couple riding them with a dog, the world send signs.
To: alexandre
I know we not really talking now, I'm learning to be digital artist.
To: alexandre
staring on chat, waiting for any message.
To: alexandre
I hope this is just a dream, not the reality I have to wake up to-one without caressing your blonde hair, without looking into your ocean-blue eyes.
To: alexandre
I miss our meetings in unfinished spots till 7 am and nostalgic basements.
To: alexandre
I remember me glancing through the window, and you saying goodbye, is it now forever?
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