To: Baris
You said Ill find someone else, someone Id never want to be apart from. But what if that person was you? What if I never stop hurting like this?
To: Baris
I miss you so much. Everyday gets closer to that one day, the one that feels like it was just yesterday. The day that my world was ruined. I love you.
To: baris
remember that night? - sara kays. i listen to this song everytime u reach out. in a few month ill start forgetting u again.
To: baris
its been a long time since i last posted about u (09.2025) i had a great day today, i often do. but at night i still miss you.
To: Baris
I love you. I heard you were doing well, idk whether or not I am happy for you. I dont believe that you dont hold a grudge. I think you hate me.
To: Baris
i never wouldve thought id say this, but i think im starting to let u go. even if its only little by little
To: Baris
why does my heart hurt so much when i hear your name?
To: Baris
i know you dont remember but happy anniversary
To: Baris
i wonder if you think of me as much as i think of you
To: Baris
couldnt sleep last night because i know that its over between us, i mumble to myself at 7am, as i drift to sleep
To: Baris
this night i called you. im happy you didnt pick up
To: Baris
it was fine for a few days. but today i miss you so much that i want to tell everyone about what u did to me, just so i can start hating you again
To: Baris
my head knows its over. but my heart? it will hold on forever. because i love you.
To: Baris
This time it's rlly over
To: Baris
how could u do that and call me after. tell me u love me, tell me u miss me.
To: Baris
i see in you what i dont have. freedom
To: Baris
thank you for the letters. you never send them but i know it took you a lot to write all of them.
To: Baris
Dear Baris, (...) i say as i write you another letter i will never send
To: Baris
i promise i will never love you again. never never never.
To: Baris
and for my last act of love i will let u think whatever u want about me. im not changing ur mind anymore
To: Baris
please stop repeating that we will never get back together. it hurts. if i dont think about it i can pretend its not real.
To: Baris
today u showed me what u bought. and for a second i thought what i said on here was cruel and wrong. but then u change and i cant recognize u nymore
To: Baris
if u didnt forget my birthday why did u do it on it? its almost worse if u didnt forget. u didnt even apologize
To: Baris
its like you punish me for loving you
To: Baris
i promise that i will never reach out to you again. that this time i really wont. at night i turn into a liar. this time i rlly wont message you.
To: Baris
looking out for you - joy again
To: Baris
i wonder for how long i can take missing you
To: Baris
someone said "forgetting each other is the last thing we will do together" and i dont think ill ever recover from that
To: Baris
sometimes my heart physically hurts from not being able to reach out to you.
To: Baris
sometimes I hate u, sometimes I hate myself. but i always miss u.
To: Baris
another night of talking, kinda fighting kinda not. and i still love you. i will always choose you.
To: Baris
today i read aslfua. after that i started crying cause cheol reminds me so much of you. how things could have been if we lived near each other
To: Baris
tou told me quiet a few times now that u hate me. me too. I love you too
To: Baris
today i felt ur absence in every bone of my body and every fiber of my soul
To: Baris
remember that night? - sara kays
To: Baris
i cant imagine never hearing of you again. it isnt real, is it? someday in the future we will start talking again, right?
To: Baris
and you said, if i love u, i should never contact u ever again. and if that means crashing out 10 times a day, then thats what im doing rn
To: Baris
Im scared to add songs to our shared playlist cuz what if u take that from me too?
To: Baris
also, needing 4 month to write a letter says smthing about you. not about me
To: Baris
was the text rlly necessary when we already cut off contact days ago?
To: Baris
Waiting. Checking. Waiting.
To: Baris
these days im always wondering what you might be thinking about
To: Baris
Today you told me about that one episode in black mirror. I didnt have the heart to admit u told me 3 times by now.
To: Baris
Its only been two days but it feels like an eternity. Pls come back
To: Baris
In the end all we do is make each other miserable.
To: Baris
I wish u wouldnt say all this stuff about me thats not true. Ik you do it to feel better about leaving. But none of it is true.
To: Baris
this night u told me to stop acting like a couple when we r only friends. a few hours later u said u love me. an hour later u cut off all contact.
To: Baris
i love you so much that sometimes i feel like i am drowning in it.
To: Baris
today i told you, you don't need to call me. that i will be fine. i wish you didn't hang up.
To: Baris
Yesterday I missed you so much I could barely breath. I don't want us to be over. But you live in a world i will never be able to reach.
To: Baris
Yesterday I ate some berrys and had to think of you. I miss you