To: Colleen
I hope your family is doing well. I hope you play Minecraft with your friends. I hope your cats are all alive. I will keep the Instagram post up.
To: Colleen
I do not know if we will be friends again, if we will just be Instagram mutuals forever. It is mostly on me. I will not force it, though. I am sorry.
To: Colleen
Maybe if it were not for her, if I was a bit different, it could have been us for awhile. I wish it could have been. I miss sunsets with you.
To: Colleen
I was a mess, I still am a mess. I knew it would not work, but it felt nice to daydream. I miss sunsets with you. I miss your hair and your smile.
To: Colleen
You used to give me butterflies. You were so cute. Wanted to hold your hand and call you pretty and listen to you sing. Miss you doing my makeup.
To: Colleen
Sometimes I wish I had let you kiss me. It would have felt like a movie. I am so sorry that I had no words, that the words I had were not enough.
To: Colleen
Sigh. I love u gurl, but im tired. I have my standards set to minimum and u still fail to deliver. I wanna be friends but Im demoting u hun
To: colleen
im sorry for all of these. u dont need the stress of my rambling. ive been able to get my mind somewhat off u. enjoy ur summer
To: colleen
even tho ik the chances are practically 0 im still constantly preparing myself for any sort of situation where i see u in public. maybe im just crazy.
To: colleen
i still cant get u out of my brain and its killing me. im constantly spiraling after there was nothing i could do at the end. Montreal-Penelope Scott
To: colleen
feels like el universo es against me. maybe nunca te pueda dar las cosas ni te diga nada. espero verte next fall anyway. disfruta del verano. ty.
To: colleen
feels like the universe is against me. maybe ill never be able to give u the stuff. still, hope ill see u next fall. enjoy ur summer. ty for this year
To: colleen
im still so paranoid uve seen all of these. if u have then the note will make evrythng insanely obvious. if u have idk if i can handle seeing u again
To: colleen
i decided im finally gonna give u a note w/ the other stuff. i can never tell you everything, but it feels moral not to tell you this
To: colleen
WHATARETHESECONTRADICTINGFEELINGS I WANT TO BE NOTICED AND LIKED BY U AND THEN IT BARELY HAPPENS AND I PANIC AND WANT TO BE INVISIBLE WHATSWRONGWITHME
To: colleen
WHYWHYWHYWHYWHY AGHHH WHY WOULD YOU SEND IT WHY WOULD YOU NOTICE ME WHY WOULD YOU WASTE EFFORT ON ME WHY WOULD YOU CARE ABT ME NONONONONO
To: colleen
enough to u to be able to talk abt stupid things like music or shows or even personal life. ik itll never ever happen and is stupid to want at all 2/2
To: colleen
im so delusional for even thinking i could ever be close to u in a normal way, let alone a more personal way. idek why im so hopeful to get close 1/2
To: colleen
is it weird to listen to music for you? i want to have common interest to talk to u abt even tho ik casual convos like that might already be too weird
To: colleen
i wish i could talk to you abt your fav music. i like a lot of the same stuff but idk where to start with the other artists
To: colleen
how do you stay so calm all the time? im so jealous of your ability to just always be nonchalant. teach me your secrets T-T
To: colleen
i still feel like everything i do makes it insanely obvious, and its killing me
To: colleen
now that nervousness will just be bc i like u & want u to like me & not bc im trying to suppress stupid romantic fantasies whenever ur around (pt 4/4)
To: colleen
but the way i like you shifted from romantic attraction to platonic admiration. idk why or how and ik ill still be nervous around you (pt 3)
To: colleen
it made me realize that with knowing more abt ur personality, especially when you were younger, it still made me like u even more than before (pt 2)
To: colleen
i talked with my friend a lot yesterday and it made me realize everything i learned didnt make me fall for you harder (pt 1)
To: colleen
the more i discover abt you the deeper i fall for you. i need to stop but its the only thing keeping me going rn.
To: colleen
i would do things for you that i wouldve never considered doing for anyone else. it scares me. whats happening to me?
To: colleen
i know more than i should abt u & its only solidified the fact that ur practically the polar opposite of my type, so why does it make me want u more?
To: colleen
i want my heart to stop racing around you. i want to stop finding your smile adorable. i want to physically rip my feelings for you out of my body.
To: colleen
im being eaten from the inside out by my feelings for you. i feel the same around you every day then hate myself for it. why wont they leave??
To: colleen
it often feels like you can read my mind, and while ik its just coincidences, it terrifies me anyway
To: colleen
i would be so insanely screwed if you ever found these. . .
To: colleen
i think i might have to just disappear if you ever found these. . .
To: colleen
are my feelings to you as obvious as it feels for me? idk what i would do if i ever found out you knew
To: colleen
you only wear it occasionally but omg that purple shirt drives me insane. . . how am i meant to focus on anything but you?
To: colleen
i like you, its wrong, i dont know why i do, i hate myself for it. ik it could never work for so many reasons. por que me pareces tan hermosa?
To: Colleen
I miss you and think of you from time to time, then I realize how toxic you were. But were you toxic to me? Were you really my friend? -A
To: colleen
i miss what we had, bug. it's hard to see who you are now, it's not who i was in love with. i know she's still in there, take care of yourself
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